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My holiday end soon. Kinda missing my school time. I learn a lot during the holiday.

Firstly, is a relationship between me and a guy make me realise i am so unmature. I realise tat any relationship through hp or online are totally not true. I learn my lesson. Believe me!!! This relationship end up with curious, sadness, and misunderstanding. However me oledi don want to correct it anymore.

This make me know tat loneliness and emptiness cannot be filled up by hoping a relationship with another person. It is kind of annoying coz it make me think alot and very mafan. So now i prefer living and enjoying my life alone and i think it will be happier.

Secondly, there is no forever friendship in reality life. If want to then hv to work hard for it. On my 21 birthday, i expect friend to wish me at least through hp and it will be enough as i think. However, those who i think is "best friend" owes forget my special day. Haiz~~~ Kinda sad tat day. Furthermore, expect present from ppl is not good at all and is need to be gived back to them. That is wat i learn. Do not expect other ppl give thing to u without me pay back to them. Is like owing something from them. Not easy to pay back.

Friendship..... Nowadays, i hv a male friend who care me a lot and owes there for me. However this time i hope i am not that sensitive anymore and hopefully we can maintain this relationship together. Coz everything will be change if let the friendship become couple. Hope tat day wont come as they say there is no male friend who will be friend with a female for a long time. They owes expect for something more.

Wah... Looks like i hv many thinking and experience. But hopefully i can start my new sem happily and continue my life journey. God bless me for all and forgive me for any sins.