我变了。

有人说，
我变了。。。

变得不爱说话了。。。
变得有许多秘密藏在心里。。。

我还是那么得多愁善感。。。
我还是那么的己人犹天。。。
我还是那么的傻里傻气。。。
我还是家里的傻大姐。。。

然而。。。
我变了。。。

我变得自己也不认得自己了。。。

我累了。

我真的累了。。。
心很累。。。
无法形容。。。

唯有泪水能证明我真的累了。。。
付出了。。。
已经超出自己的负荷了。。。

泪也干了。。。
自己对着自己傻笑。。。
原来自己是如此的不正常了。。。

哪里是我心里的归属？？
恐怕现在已经没有别位了。。。
只剩下这个四方窄小的墙了。。。

往日天真的我，
你在哪里？
好无助哦。。。

心灵已支透了。。。
榨干了。。。

此时此刻，
我即是感到如此的寒冷。。。
心冻坏了。。。

糟糕了，
我已找不回我自己了。。。

lost my way again...

I lost my path again...
Week 4 wanna end oledi.
Wat hv i done???

Firstly,
I cant finish my statistic tutorial,

Secondly,
I cant concentrate do my revision,

Thirdly,
I donno hw to do the Pengajian Malaysia assignment,
scare nothing can help the group and make them unhappy.

Forth,
My Fluid assignment not yet touched,

Fifth,
My mum's health is unstable,
worry her,

Last,
I spend too much time on others and cant manage to use my time wisely,

As a result,
no time to do assignment,
no time to do revision,
no time to go through the notes given,
no time to change myself.

Wat i decided weeks ago cant be achieved.
Wat i thought is juz building sandcastle in the air,
Wat i do now is juz cry over spilt milk,
Wat can i do actually???

I lost my way again.
My GOD,
When i donno how to go on,
God says
"I will show u the path."
Then wat path does GOD hv for me?
God says
"My beloved son Jesus Christ."

start busy sem again...

Nw oledi in the end of Week 3,
well...
Nw juz feel busy more than day before...
Let me list down the works...

1. The most rush is the thermo tutorial to be handed in on Monday
2. Pengajian Malaysia assignment and it cant be done like cincai coz it contains main coursework
marks
3. FLuid assignment 1 to be handed in at the end of June
4. Quiz ( Engineering Materials) on Monday
5. Many many revisions needed to be done coz really cant understand like FLuid II

So...........
Really a tough and rush time for me
But donno hw for others
Maybe they are more relax than me coz they did better than me in previous semester
I had badly done
so must put in more effort in my study

Therefore,
today is Saturday,
a lovely weekend.
But i cracked my head to do the thermo tutorial only Q3,
I cant solve the problem,
many books i refered back,
I really tried and tried.
At least i had tried.

Now i trying to find the information for pengajian Malaysia coz need to discuss on Monday oledi,
and somemore the Fluid Assignment too.
Then tomolo is the time to study Engineering Materials for Quiz.
HAiz....
SO many things needed to be done and yet i cant divide my time properly.
Before i write this blog,
i am actually taking my nap.
xlolx... =.=

After this,
try to find information loo...
So is time to say goodbye again.
Sayonara!!!

感言。。。

成绩出了，
心情不一样了。
考的不好，
是谁的错？
还不是自己的错。
怨不得别人。

自己的问题已经够多了，
要重考。。。
ptptn loan 又被停止。
压力实在是很大。
你也面对一样的问题。
如果你停读，
也是你的选择，
我并不能干涉你，
只能给你意见。
我相信对其他人也一样。
每个人的人生都是在各自的手里。

昨天和一个刚认识的学长说了很多，
才发现自己是多么的懒惰。
难怪他能拿到标青的成绩。
这就是差别所在。
我现在就听从学长的意见，
改变自己的读书方式，
希望会有成果。
不过我相信只要有付出，
就会有一定的成果。

主啊！！！
我又回到您身边了。
当我无助的时候，
我寻求您的安慰，
您总不丢弃我，
谢谢您！！！

每个人都有自己要过的难关，
有些人过不到，
就会想不开，
最后放弃所有包括生命。
我呢。。。
在边缘。
希望我可以过这一关。

加油哦！！！^^